Navigating Imposter Syndrome and Wondering: What Am I Doing?!

Now that my website is up and running, which by the way took months and months, I suddenly have imposter syndrome. Creating this site and bringing it to fruition was a challenge, but also so much fun. Now... what to do with said website. How do I get people here, and OH MY GOSH, WHAT HAVE I DONE?!? All of this work and I already feel like it's going to be a failure (quick shoutout to my Taurus tendencies, btw). I know the most efficient way to get people to my site is through social media, but that makes me SO nervous. Why? Here's a little back story...

I am not a huge fan of social media. In fact, I tend to dislike it greatly. I have tried Facebook several times and just can't get into the dynamic of it. This may not be the popular opinion, but I feel like FB is one big popularity contest to see who has the better life. I found I was comparing myself to others and that was just not healthy for me. Twitter, now called X, was better but that also went by the wayside after a fairly short amount of time. Then I discovered Instagram and... I didn't hate it. In fact, I quite liked it! It became a resource to find recipes, cute outfit ideas, watch funny dog videos and my personal favorite... boating videos. Nothing is more enjoyable than watching a novice try to trailer a boat... pure entertainment! The type of people I follow on IG are down to earth and actually bring me joy, which sounds stupid but it's true. They all share things I'm looking for; similar style, great recipes, and fun personalities. I was all in on this new-to-me platform, but I myself did not post because it seemed so intimidating.

Which leads to why I'm nervous... Getting the public to interact with my Instagram account, let alone my website, is not an easy feat. You have to show up every single day. There are SEO's, hashtags, and countless other things needed to draw an audience in, not to mention how downright mean that audience can be. One of the main reasons I started this blog and website is to share all the things I love such as health & beauty, fashion, things for the home, etc. You see, I am what my husband calls, a "merchandiser's dream". I LOVE to shop and never get tired of looking for new things to try. I also love talking to friends about new products and often get asked my opinion on what to use on their skin, what to wear to an event or where to shop for home goods and I am all too eager to share. I love sharing these things so much, I thought I could do what all these women that I follow on Instagram do. This is where imposter syndrome comes in.

I know these women have been doing their job for years, and trust me when I say, it is a JOB. So why do I think I can just jump in and do this? I have NO CLUE!! Full transparency, I went online and ordered a bunch of random clothes to try on and share on Instagram and it was so fun and exciting! But wait, now I actually have to share them... with my body and my voice and my face and I. am. SCARED! Will I be judged? Maybe. Will I look silly? Probably.

Do I just need to dive in and start somewhere? 100%, otherwise all of this will be for nothing.

So for now, I need to put these feelings aside and pretend to know what I'm doing and hope to one day look back and see how far I've come. Let's just hope that day comes sooner than later!

My view the last several months.

Not a fancy picture of a computer on a cute desk

with a plant and coffee... Just an unfiltered view

of what I've been up to!